I really need to post more, but life can get over whelming. Learning that the hard way right now knowing I'm biting off more than I can chew, but it's making me feel special on the inside. So I guess that's good. I really need to figure out how to write an essay for AP Lit, a lot harder than I thought it would be.
Basically I still am trying to figure out how to analyze more then in my head. I can do it perfect in my head, because it's in pictures. It's hard to put pictures into words, makes me wish I thought in words instead so I could make more sense on paper. AP Government on the other hand is giving me no problems at all. I like the class a lot. Not that I don't like AP Lit (because I love it) Gov is just a lot easier.
On another note, I've been with my boyfriend now for 7 months. Longest relationship I've ever been in, and I'm happier than I've ever been too. I'm not lonely and depressed like I used to.
Back in about sophomore year I didn't really have friends for a while, all of mine started dating and I wasn't as important. Hello first stages of lonely. I started dating my ex then and that was a terrible mistake, I lost one of my best friends doing that and I miss them. Flash to Junior year and two rejections later I decide to make a move on my now boyfriend. I had a crush on him since my freshmen year when i saw him making sea glass jewelry, but I never did anything about it because another friend of mine said he'd never like me. Well 11th grade I made a move on him and 7 months later here we are. Happy, awesome, and mad at Idaho because it's in the way of us seeing each other more often.
Regardless of Idaho, I am also working on setting up a Halloween concert, a haunted house, a play, a second smaller play, and a garden. All these things are the jobs I have willingly taken on. I'm a crazy nut job. We're doing Our Town as the fall play this year. i really want to be Emily Webb, as I've never been a lead before and I kind of feel like as the only senior who has been there for four years I kind of deserve it more than a random younger kid coming in.
My worst fear is that if I don't get Emily, who ever does will treat this play like a comedy, it's not. It's a classic and needs to be treated as such. It's a role for an older drama student, I just hope the role goes to somebody responsible. I've never ever been a lead before, maybe I'm not cut out for it or something, but I just hope whoever gets this doesn't treat it like anything less then important. Sorry. I'm a bit of an acting snob.
Well, I guess that's my rant for the week, the only thing left to say is....
Happy 18th Birthday Writing and Recovering! You're one of my best friends and I don't know where I'd be with out you. :D
